Sometimes I think I have set myself up and I’ll be able to have a nice stable life for a little while.
I think ‘oh good, I can get on with being alive now that everything is set up’.
But that doesn’t seem to be how life works, at least not for me. I had a boss once who used to say that maybe our job isn’t being interrupted by constantly responding to and putting out fires, maybe putting out fires is our job. It sort of helps to stop you from dismissing stuff as in the way.
I know I’ve heard it before and I’m sure I’ll forget and have to remind myself. Life doesn’t start when everything is ready and settled and under control. All that stuff is life.
Things will always be unsettled. There will always be stuff that is out of your control.
Life doesn’t have a satisfying narrative arc. It’s a bunch of scribbles and chaos that we have to try to fumble our way through.
So as I head into another portion of my life without a stable income, at least for the moment, I’m trying to tell myself that it’s all good and that the opportunities that will come from being available will totally be worth it.
Plus, I have some money hidden away, I won’t starve. Adventures ahoy!